my confession

It is true. I have become a disgusting sap.

I kid you not (again).

LB, Emilie, Chris, JenB, Katiebabs chook and the Island Kitteh all bear witness to the ridiculous lengths I will consider, nay, go to, in an attempt to fulfill my latest obsession.

First, it was Deniz and Roman from Alles Was Zahlt.

Click on pic for the glory that is the shower scene. The aftermath… not so good. 😦

Then, it was the oh, so cute Luke and Noah from As the World Turns, although their recent storylines suck big, fat, hairy donkey ballz! *Maybe if you hadn’t screwed this up, CBS, you would still have a damned show on your hands!* *poutmope*

Click on pic for their first kiss, which apparently rocked the US in 2007 as the first gay kiss on daytime tellie.

And now…

Well, now it’s Kyle and Oliver from One Life to Live. *sigh*

Yes, Deniz and Roman are completely friggin’ awesome and the portrayal of their relationship sheer bliss, but Kyle and Oliver have their own song!


Their own song!!!!

*double sigh*

Perhaps I did hound certain US bloggy friends until one of them bought me the single from US iTunes and sent it to me – I luff my KBC! – , but, let me ask you this, is there anything really wrong with that?!?! *NO!*

I’ll let you decide for yourself.

Here’s a fan vid put together by itsjustlove1 featuring both song and Kish kisses, including their first love scene:

I have goose pimples. 🙂

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57 Responses to my confession

  1. I am so going to post the video montage on my blog also. The passion and kissing, with that song is so romantic.

    One of the best love scenes I have watched on a day time soap in years.

    How many times have you listen to the song? lol

  2. Emilie says:

    I've been going back through issues of AfterElton's “Gays of Our Lives” ( and watching clips of various shows. I'm getting into the One Life to Live story, too. It really seems like the storyline is above the average for a U.S. daytime show.

  3. Tam says:

    Well, that was nice. 😀

    I don't watch soaps, that whole being at work during the day thing interferes and I'd hate to have to put up with the other storylines. I must get on that German thing one of these days. Sigh. So many things to do, so little time.

  4. lbgregg says:

    And I will see them all in NYC. BWAHAHAHAHAHA.

    I promise to send you a present from the fangirl festivus. A towel. A little bottle of shampoo. A hotel soap. The under-roos of some poor unsuspecting man.

    Emilie, you will be the decoy. I will …. filch something for Kris.

    Song, shmong. DeRo 4 evah.

  5. Leontine says:

    Wow, Kris, my mouth is parched over here. This is an awesome manlove vid, and so very natural acted by the two guys. Kudos to them, I sometimes see man/man kisses that make it seem like it tastes of salt and vinegar but this…yowzer, this I can look at, at any given time 🙂

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  7. Tam says:

    Chain-saw spam. How original. ROFL

  8. Lovely clips. Thanks for sharing your sappiness! I got caught up in Ollie and Christian, and check in on Kish from time to time. I just don't think I can lose days investigating the others. So if you can keep posting smexy scenes, that'd be great. Y'know…you do the work, we benefit!

  9. Ingrid says:

    Geesh Kris, I am almost afraid to touch the screen. It is too much!

    Mumma J, can you help out please? Switch a button or something? I want my Kris back!

  10. Kris says:

    Katiebabs chook! My hero! *g* I may have listened to the song *cough* one or two times *cough* yesterday. *hehehe*

    It's an awesome love scene. Gorgeous stuff.

    Emilie: I actually discovered the OLTL story via the Gays of Our Lives Best of 2009 edition. They were pretty complimentary about it so I decided that I would have a look see. Well, you can see the results for yourself. 😉

    Tam, it sure is. 🙂 I've never been a soapie person before in my life! Let's just say that the Mumma is not quite sure what to do with me lately. LOL.

  11. Kris says:

    LB, you damned braggart!!!

    If I don't get the DeRo pic with the 'We love Kris' sign, I'm gonna be seriously pissed with you and Emilie!

    PS – It is true that DeRo is the awesome and reigns supreme in this fangirl's heart, but… A SONG!!!!

    Leontine, I'm so glad that you like it! I first discovered this vid after I found out about the OLTL storyline. Needless to say that it pretty much convinced me. The love scene is gorgeous and with such a depth of feeling… *sigh*

    Tam, is it spam, is it? Damn, I was all set to respond that we're not into blood play here.

  12. nichem says:

    Noooo, stop posting tempting/ addictive things. 😛

    Speaking of addictive, have you watched QAF?

  13. Kris says:

    Wren, LOL. Sure, sure.

    I've seen fan vids from Christian and Ollie's story too, but got turned off by the Gays of Our Lives report that a chick had recently been added to the mix. Blech to girl cooties.

    Ingrid: *snort* Well, I did warn you I'd turned into a disgusting sap.

    Richelle: Hey, this is my version of goodreads. 😉

    I never got into QAF. *shrugs* Not sure why.

  14. Ingrid says:

    Did you try the UK or the US version Kris? There is a difference you know.
    I have seen only the UK version.

  15. Kris says:

    Well, it was on late night tellie here so I'm imaging that it was the US version. Is the UK one better??

  16. Ingrid says:

    The US is a copy, as the UK version was made earlier.
    The UK version features a 16-yr old. I doubt the US version will have one

  17. Kris says:

    Ingrid, does that mean the UK version is the better one?

    KBC, yay! *off to have a squiz*

  18. Kris: There's no girl in the Chrollie mix. There's a girl who would like to be in Christian's pants, I believe, and recently overloaded his scenes, but the two boys are it for each other as far as I know.

    And QAF, US version anyway, is pretty addictive. The younger guy starts out the series at age 17 (and gets his cherry popped in the first ep). The series was on for 5 years. You can see a lot of Brian and Justin on youtube.

  19. Kris says:

    Wren: “There's no girl in the Chrollie mix.”

    Really??? *Dammit.*

  20. nichem says:

    I only watched the US version of QAF, but I've seen clips of the UK version, and the US actors are hotter (which is the most important thing, right, lol). I think you should give it another go. It took a few episodes for me to really get into it (and then I got hooked and spent 2 weeks watching one episode after another– which is why I'm scared to start something new like that).

    I tried watching Noah and Luke on youtube, but had a hard time understanding the story without knowing the rest of the characters on the soap.

  21. Kassa says:

    *just stares* makes me want to watch soaps again…

  22. Matthew says:

    Sweet vid. I was just thinking: what's the thing with cops? Looks like every other gay guy in TV (or in m/m) is a cop. Hmph.

  23. Tam says:

    I watched the first season of QAF UK on YouTube. Was there only one season because I couldn't find any other UK storylines. I never started watching the US version. I like watching it on YouTube because I could skip through the stuff I didn't care about like the greencard marriage bit.

  24. Tam says:

    I'm really curious what were the key words in your post that triggered the spam. It's not like you were posting about gay lumberjacks. Soap watchers buy a lot of chainsaws do they?

  25. Jambrea says:

    Wren..I LOVE QaF! I bought the whole series. lol

    here is a link to a Spanish one! It takes you through the whole story line. It starts off rockey, gets good, goes through a rough spot and ends…*sigh* lol

    It took me two days to finish! lol I didn't move from the computer all weekend, but it was SO worth it.

    Thanks for sharing. This vid is AWESOME!!

  26. Kris says:

    Richelle: Hot, you say?? Well, well, well. 😉

    I used the Bible of all Bibles, Wiki, to get the background story to Luke and Noah after watching a couple of episodes and scratching my head. It worked. 🙂

    Kassa: Do eeeeeeeet!

    Matthew, hun, nothing says Alpha more than a cop. If you looked it up in the dictionary there would be a pic of a big, muscly, furry one there. Just sayin'.

  27. Kris says:

    Tam: “Soap watchers buy a lot of chainsaws do they?”

    I'll remember to hold back when I feel the urge. LOL.

    Jambrea, welcome! I am, as always, happy to make others as obsessed as I. *g*

  28. Chris says:

    Ok, ok, I finally watched the montage. Awww…. 🙂

  29. nichem says:

    Tam, I *think* there were 2 seasons of UK QAF. You can watch all the US QAF on youtube too.

    Kris, heh, I never thought to look on wiki for the backstory– very smart of you. So, if I watch this German soap am I going to understand it? There aren't like 5 years worth of episodes to watch are there?

    BTW, here's a nice little montage of the first season of QAF to tempt you.

  30. Didn't LB say she spent five days watching the Alles Was Zahlt guys?

    Richelle: That's a good one. There are a lot of montages out there.

    Kris: QAF is worth watching!! fmrys on youtube has a whole gamut of brian/justin episodes, starting with The Brian and Justin Story I:

    S/he edited QAF for just the B/J characters. They go on for a bunch of roman numerals. I think I had to switch to another set with regular numbers somewhere along the way to follow the whole thing. Can't remember cause I went and bought the entire 5 seasons on dvd. I love brian/justin, but the other characters draw me in as well.

    Sorry to ramble. I kind of *heart* QAF!

  31. *sigh* I love Kyle and Oliver too, for a while now, but it's unrequited 😉
    I can go to bed now with these lovely, sweet images in my head.
    Who would have thought that? Makes a nice change *g*

  32. Jambrea says:

    Wren…I'm with you…LOVE QaF! 🙂 I was watching on YouTube, but got stopped at a certain point and ended up just buying it. I lent it to my Mother in Law and now she won't give it back. lol

  33. Lily says:

    That was seriously HOT!!!

    I can't believe I stopped watching OLTL 3 years ago and now they have a worthwhile storyline. Just my luck!

    I've got the whole series of the US version of QaF but only watched the first couple of seasons so far. Someone told me the ending and ruined it for me. One day I'll get back into, I hope.

    I watched a few episodes of Verbotene Liebe's Christian and Oliver. Pretty hot as well. I found on YouTube a really nice vid on them but haven't posted it yet.

  34. nichem says:

    Just watched the Kyle and Oliver clip. Yummy. And he's a police officer– me likey.

  35. I didn't watch…no addictions for me. Nope!

  36. orannia says:

    There is only one word I can use to describe the overwhelming emotion in that video:


    It was WOW! Kudos to the actors! And the song is…gorgeous. I was honestly getting all choked up watching it. Where is this song from please?

  37. Sean Kennedy says:

    Chain saw spam… Now I truly have seen everything.

    Kris, it's forty degrees again! Fourth day in a row! DO SOMETHING!!!

  38. Ingrid says:

    Sounds like excellent weather to stay indoors watch all those vids.

    40c is too hot for me! It hoovers around 3c here

  39. Kris says:

    Chris: Sap! *g*

    Richelle: You're gonna badger me until I watch QAF, aren't you. 🙂

    The clip is so yummy. So romantic… and I'm such a sucker. *sigh*

    The Eskimo Kiss Project starts off where Deniz arrives as a new character. I personally didn't need/want any background and was able to pick it up pretty quick so I think you should be okay. A warning… when it comes to it skip the Dark Years and go straight to EKP's DeRo 2.0 you need not subject yourself to Deniz's total failure during those episodes. 😦

    Wren: Alright already. I'll have a look see. Sheesh. 😉

    *ponders* Is it bad of me to think naughty things about B/J?? I figure not somehow given the context. LOL.

    Janna: I luff them too. *whispers* I went to sleep last night with their song playing. Don't tell anyone, though. They might think I've completely lost it. 🙂

  40. Your secret is save with me, Kris 😉 I had some really sweet dreams too!

  41. Kate Davies says:

    And my other favorite soap couple! Your blog is making me very happy today. 🙂

    I used to be a total “European gay soap storylines are better” snob (and, honestly, the crap stories they've given to Nuke have been criminal) but OLTL hooked me. Treating a gay couple the same as a het couple? With love scenes and everything? Win. Plus, they're just so cute together.

    And My Confession may have been in high rotation on iTunes for me lately, too. Not sayin'.

  42. Kris says:

    Jambrea: That's such a fun story about your MIL and QAF. I'm not sure how many people would be able to recall something similar. *g*

    Lily: KB said that she had stopped watching it too and I was like 'are you mental? Kyle and Oliver!'. However *cough* I may be a tad biased. Only a little mind you.

    I've seen a couple of fan vids for Ollie and Christian and it looked terrific. Now that Wren has confirmed that the chick is not in the picture, I have no doubt that I will be succumbing very shortly. LOL.

    Bridget: Aw, c'mon. You know you want to. 😉

    Orannia: The song is My Confession by Rie Sinclair & Friends but is only available via US iTunes. 😦 Which also explains my badgering of US peeps until one – I still luff my KBC! – agreed to get it for me. I may have squeed when I got it. A little. *g*

  43. Kris says:

    Sean, I keep telling you a hellgate has opened. I want Angel now!!

    BTW, you didn't say whether you'd started watching Kish last night. Did you? Well?

    Ingrid: I worked in the country today in 44 degree heat and most of it outside at that. I think I'll be watching vids for the next couple of days as part of my recovery. I am a big, slightly sick, red freckle at the moment. 😦

    Janna: Phew! 😉

    Kate, hey there infamous DeRo pimp. 🙂

    Nuke turned out to be such a bunch of bullshit after it had so much potential at the beginning of the storyline. Plus all the murder attempts, fake weddings and accidents. Geezus. Complete and utter poo. *shakes fist at CBS*

    I was really impressed by OLTL's handling of Kish's relationship. Not to mention the way that Oliver's coming out was dealt with and then the rebuilding of their relationship. Bliss!

    “And My Confession may have been in high rotation on iTunes for me lately, too.”

    See, everyone. See! I'm not the only one! Ha!

  44. Sean Kennedy says:

    Haven't started watching it fully yet – all i had seen before were some random clips on After Elton. I'm scared if I start I'll get sucked in and I'll never finish this rewrite. I'm still coping with my Big Love addiction.

  45. Mandi says:

    I don't watch soaps but I LOVE that video. LOVE LOVE LOVE 🙂

  46. Kris, you should do a first series in hot man loving in tv and movies and post the clips here so we can all swoon.

  47. Kris says:

    Sean: Would 1 or 2 episodes really do you any harm? As Ingrid pointed out, at least it's a way to get through the heat. *g*

    Mandi: YAY! Am so glad. I still get goose pimples after the gazillionth time of watching it. 🙂

    Katiebabs: *ponders* It is true I don't seem to have posted enough clips lately. I may do just that.

  48. Chris says:

    But wait, won't watching those episodes warm Sean up more?! *confused*

  49. Kris says:


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